My Mind's Eye... Or Whatever

Where do I begin? There are just so much things going on that it's taking quite some time to process them all. So I'm just gonna list 'em all out for you to see/read. I need to highlight that they're not in chronological order.

Books I've read

Kafka On The Shore by Haruki Murakami
The Growing Pains of Adrian Mole by Sue Townsend
Violence 101 by Denis Wright
Villain by Shuichi Yoshida

There is something about in the way how the characters in Kafka and Villain are written and linked to each other in their respective books. Although Violence 101 had good character study of its protagonist, it failed to resonate within me. Whereas, on the other hand, the characters in these 2 books felt personal when it reveals the motive and reason behind each character's decision. Hmm.. The Japanese seems to have a way with their words... Oh yeah, Philip Gabriel: you, Sir, are indeed a fantastic translator. Thank you for allowing me to come aboard these books with ease.

Work

I hate Luke.

It is my first time working under a total asshole. I like my job scope, but I dislike the crude, rude, insensitive, violent and insane person I'm working with.

1. Crude: His jokes about sex with girls and the moaning sounds he makes IN THE OFFICE.
2. Rude: His "Your mother" replies. You can ask him a question OR doing something, and he'll say something along the lines of "That's not what your mother said to me last night,"
3. Insensitive: The recent slashing case at Cineleisure Orchard. "Maybe we should hire some Mats and get them to slash Jordan's face eh!" Jordan is a colleague he doesn't like, because of his "irritating" (I find him articulate but long-winded) conversations. And his unibrow.
4. Violent: He slapped the clerk several times. 'Nuff said.
5. Insane: Blasting music in office when no one's around. And he can be nice sometimes, which confuses me, but maybe he's only trying. I don't know what to make of him.

He has less than a year to go. Time, please go faster D=

N & R's Situation

We are still friends. I am slowly accepting the fact she's actually becoming stable, but still wary of her. But during that time when she ditched me, I think I may have erased the reason why I wanted to be friends with her. And I've been toying with the question ever since we made up: Is there any thing left for me to hang on to her? Or should I just let her fade away from my life?

I think N is maturing, finally. I think some of the credit goes to Jo Yin. None to me. I don't think I ever said something that is life-changing to anyone. Hmm...

And because of how N and Ron has severed ties, I am smacked right in the middle between these two. Talking to Ron about N has always been a difficult and awkward topic for me. Likewise to N about Ron. And possibly, my loyalty is being questioned. Whose side am I on? I'd like to be on both, but judging by the current circumstances, it'll be hard one to balance.

Videography

I might be involved in some productions before this year ends. None of them are confirmed, but N is trying to get me involved in a music video that is sung by her friend. Things will be easier, now that I have a camera of my own =D

I haven't directed my short film script (The carpark one), yet I am thinking of other film ideas.

I have one scene in my head where a younger brother happen to see her elder sister engaging coitus in her room and then later on, he replays the scene he'd seen with toys in her presence. Need development, shit.

Don't know if I'm purposely running away from bigger productions because of my fear for "Need for perfection", or I'm just trying to hold back because of other commitments. Haiz, fuck man..

Creo Desserts

A lot has happened in the past few weeks. I can't really discuss them, but I really do hope this business overcomes its problems and takes off soon. It hasn't been easy dealing with a ticking bomb at home that is my sister. And it's not her fault. It's just the amount of stress she's accumulated has led her to explode on several occasions.

Just the other day, she and my mother had a catfight, because my mother stupidly used the kitchen when my elder sister specifically told her not to the previous night... Then again, it was interesting to watch the both of them fight it out. It was cool to see towels and comb being thrown and flinging of limbs. Don't worry,  everything's good now.

Wish everything will slowly work itself out..

Money

Budget is so tight that I am restricting myself nearly to all goodness that the world has to offer. No purchase of CD albums (I REALLY WANNA BUY YA PHOENIX AND DAFT PUNK!), no new clothes (BAGGY CLOTHES FTW) and I can't go to restaurants (Only once in a while, but it still kills me)

I have meticulously planned that $200 is taken out every month for uni studies. Plus I'm planning an overseas trip with Zhao De to go to Philippines visit Agassi in 2014 March. That's like $70/month worth of savings I gotta do. So I'm left with $180 per month to spend on travel, army phone bills, weekend spendings and disposable spending on snacks.

And I had just asked my younger sis to help me spend $50 on Color Run Singapore. So I guess that I gotta return her bit by bit every month... Fuck I'm so broke. I'm left $45 to spend till the next pay comes in on the 10th July.. $*&!?@!#~

September

When this month comes, I don't know how to exactly cope with Ron's departure. Have been thinking about it, since the day she told me. I'm anticipating it and I'm nervous to say the least. Don't wanna delve any further, because I am worried she would chance upon this.

fin

Upbeat & Vivacious

Oh, the things I would give for a gift that is a pair of magic jazz hands and a warm, husky voice...



1) All At Sea 1:38
2) Just One Of Those Things 9:11
3) Get Your Way 15:15
4) I Ruled The World 21:37
5) Twentysomething 28:09
6)What A Difference 34:22
7) It Ain't Necessarily So 40:33
8) Love Ain't Gonna Let You Down 45:18
9) You And Me Are Gone 49:58
10) Blame It On My Youth 58:13
11) Don't Stop The Music 1:03:04
12) Land of Beginning Again 1:08:05
13) Mixtape 1:12:30
14) These Are The Days 1:18:50
15) Gran Torino 1:24:33

Jamie Cullum, the company you've kept me on lonely, rainy nights..