*Original title was "Relationships", but due to the digression, it has changed to the aforementioned above
"Relationships of the 21st Century are a little more complicated than just selfish affairs and lost feelings..." - Me
Maybe it's just me? I don't know but I feel that relationships at my age are hard to handle. And I'm not just talking about relationship you have with your boyfriends and girlfriends, though the quote above seems otherwise.
I'm talking about friendships too.
Friendships for me are hard to handle. Not that I hardly care about them. It's just...Friends...they come and go. Like for example, during this period, you have Set A of friends...In the next period, it's Set B of friends. "Period" can also mean "Phase of your life". Like how you're going through a joyous albeit stressful time in school and a tough time at work. If you haven't notice and start looking at your whole life from a different standpoint other than yourself, you've been having a different set of friends in every about 4-5 years time...
Maybe it's just me...I mean yeah, sure you and the oldies still remain in contact...But your main friends are no longer there. Mine are replaced by some weirdos from some other schools...XJ is probably the only guy that I can click with.
Jon and Ali...I'm not so hot on them. They're nice people but their minds are fucked. Sometimes I just turn my brain off when I'm talking to them... Especially when they're badmouthing people and suggesting some crude and violent gestures involving a handgun. I don't like how they talk..."Manly...", "Fierce.." and "Trauma...". God, I'm beginning to sound like them. I'm not a loser, neither am I a Popeye-esque person. I am just a normal boy growing up with his weird little nuances.
Shit...I'm back where I left it.
Wrapping that up, I know who I am and if you don't like me because of what I am...Suck it up.
I digressed too much. What I meant to say is, it's hard trying to pay attention down to all the little details that my friends have. Zhao De still plays Pokemon on his laptop. Xiang Chou got drunk and high his first time on Absolute Vodka. XJ's a faithful and staunch believer of God. Zaidah loves Subway's Oatmeal Cookies...
I'm not saying it's a chore to remember all these. It's just the way how my mind works. Everything is gotta be organized and systematic. Categorized. Shelved. Grouped. Measured. Blah blah blah...I can go on... I just hate myself for showing my love for friends that I hung out recently. Recency is a problem here. I can't ...Dammit I'm just blabbing on and on about shit that don't make sense...
Okay...Here's an ultimatum.
I don't want my friends, old or new, to think I'm selfish, unloving and conceited. Just because I don't communicate with you doesn't mean I have forgotten about you. Unless you're a friend that caused some serious distress in the past and I hate you, then I wouldn't be very interested in talking with you on MSN *coughs* Bobby!
If you and I consider ourselves as awesome good friends, don't ever leave me. I know we have stuff to pursue in the future and I'll understand why you can't make it for our meet-ups. I'll try to remember all the things you told me you like and dislike. Most importantly, I will always be here for you if you need to talk. Just drop me a message on MSN or a call, I will be there in a jiffy... That's if I'm totally free and can stop doing whatever the hell I'm doing.
Su Juen, no matter how much I apologise, I know it can't right the wrong that I did to you. You are a one of the many sources of inspiration of life to me. I love the advices you gave. The Subway cookies you treated me. The meet-ups and stories...I love you, girl. I love you very much...And though things will never be same between you and me, my mistakes in this friendship will always serve as a reminder to treasure my other relationships with my close mates.
For my old buddies of ease and comfort: Andrew, Xiang Chou, Zheng Qian, Wei Lin, Zhao De, Agassi, Shaun, Farhan, Lynn...You guys will always be the best of the best...
For my relatively new awesome friends: XJ, Zaidah, Amanda, Jo Yin, Cassandra and Ron (Ruo Nan)...You guys make my Poly life a little less bleak and a lot more joyous with the love and fun...
I have nothing but gracious and Love in me...
Oh wait, IDEA! *snaps finger*
...This is a start of a LovePost Trilogy.
Cheers...
PS. Su Juen was a senior of mine. She was my favourite. And she has a cute chipmunk face.
**Blogger under the influence of sleepiness. If the post does not make sense, please report to blogger with a phone call and say "Dude, you suck!"...That ought to do it.
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