So, I was telling her though I may be over Melissa, I may be back at love again and I may ask a girl out from our class. I have my reason... I don't know anyone outside class. I'm not swamped with choices. In fact, I only have a few.
Ayin helped narrow down the choices by ticking out the "chosen ones". Like...Kai Lyn (ugh~), Eliza, Melissa, Amanda, Amrit (duh~) and Zaidah. Then take out the ones I woudn't even touch.
Basically, I'm left with very little choices...Maybe even just three. No, I'm not naming names, go figure out yourself. Though it's just three possibilities, I feel discouraged somehow because they're not really my type of girlfriend. But hey! Nothing in this world satisfies anyone, so whatever...
Ayin told me something that was intriguing AAAANNNDDD I ain't announcing it here. Ask me another time and maybe, just maybe, I will tell you.
Anyway, I asked her about revisiting old feelings. She said it isn't a good idea. *Sighs* Obviously, I know that. But the mere thought of getting with the girl that have been there for me is pure ecstasy...
I don't know. It's wrong. And what makes this guilt even stronger is that she already has a boyfriend...So, what the hell am I thinking?! Seriously! Gahh!!
Why do guys fail to notice girls like them? It's only after the whole confession thing then guys go "Ohhh...So she DID like me.." WHAT! What the hell is that? Are we so blinded by our crushes that we fail to notice such little details in which they make their move. God, I feel so stupid! But what's done is done, you know. We can never go back to that moment in time when all was good and pure and wonderful, wonderful love blossoms.
I'm a sucker for the Past. I'd love to go back and right the wrongs that I did and I'm sure you guys feel that too. But we can't. We need to move on. I need to move on... Slightly holding onto a false hope that someday, something spectacular happens from the past.
Well, thanks for hearing this insane, cliched dude rant about love issues. Ciao! Me-out!
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