So I'm back at this again.
What's new and original this time? There's nothing much to add. This TV show of my life has run dry of original ideas, I think.
I'm finally no longer pining for girls my age like a pathetic stalker. I've moved on... Decided that falling in love with a girl is messy and unnecessary and there are lots more to girls than just sex and fulfilling emotional voids. Fantasizing.. Now that's a different act all together. No pun intended.
Come to think of it, I'm pretty fortunate that, almost all the ex-crushes, my friendship with these girls are still intact and some are going pretty strong. Usually things like this end up in flame and forever live in infamy, but not mine. So 1-Up for me.
What else?
Made new friends through my friend's music project. His name is Ron/J'on River (Some kooky name he cooked up himself) and it's suppose to pronounce it as "Joan". Doesn't matter... What matters is I'm stepping out of my comfort zone and being myself around these people. I still have an awful lot of insecure thoughts in my head but they're slowly diminishing in impact. Which is a good thing! Come on, people! Say YAY with me! Yay!
I am becoming less like my brain and more like a person! People used to scare me a lot, but internship taught me a lot that I don't have to conform. People still like me as I am.
Oh! And what's the progress on the short film scripts I have been writing? Been quite terrible, to be honest. Trying so hard to find an original idea to work with. Female masturbation, a dark Santa Clause story, psychologists, a rooftop shoot-out... Don't get me started.
I like the dark Santa Clause story the best and have actually started writing it. Yeah, like the first two lines because I haven't been in the composition phase for a long time. The language isn't coming to me like how it used to. I can only now write in images and sequences in my brain.
Anyway, I'm not going to reveal anything about the plot but I can talk about its origin. It is a story that Jon and I came up with, while thinking of a lifestyle story to shoot. I have shared it with a few people and they all gave it thumbs up. So, I'm hoping to complete it before NS enlistment drags me away to Tekong and brainwash me into a hot-blooded patriot.
Writing scripts is really hard. But I've been going through some stories and realized that as much as I try, I don't believe in them. I need to use my heart and brain to write. Somehow the stories I want to tell, their source of inspiration comes from my own life.
Some comes from a dark side of my personality that I often see in my pre-dream state. Yes, this thingamajig on my head is hard at work even before slumber. My spiritual, annoying friend says this is bad for my health. Maybe so, but this is how I roll in my mattress.
But what I need to do is to filter through the pop culture, movies, TV shows and music in my wireless squishy to find the right amount to imagine and write. Too much of it just jams the thoughts process and actually kills the idea.
I'm going to stop right here.
Other things:
- Sent e-mails to production companies to get a job
- Helping my friend N-nie for her short film
- Edit J'on River's introduction video with my new buddy Dom
- Accidently sms-ed Azhar at 1AM to ask about my testimonial. He replied "And you have to check at 1AM on a Saturday?" or something to that effect.
Fin
WOOHOOOOO
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