Typical first day. Like the same typical first days for the past 3 semesters. Hi & bye classmates. Classroom still feels oddly disintegrated and cold. There's no warmth to some of these people. I am beginning to question my belief that this class will finally be united by the end of the three years. Maybe it's a sign for me to stop being friendly and all. Time to bring out the frown guns and show these suckers that I mean business now.
But that's no way to be. I am capable of being a complete jerky-jerk but I don't want. All of us have a dark side but that doesn't mean I am the dark side. People get to choose who they want to be and I want to be fighting the forces of evil. So yeah, let's keep the beast chained forever, okay?
Returning back to school and seeing students' faces make me queasy, nervous and feel so lost in the crowd of drones. Most of all, they leave me in a state of desolation. there were a couple of times when I close my eyes, I can see lines and shadows of a human flailing his arms violently in the darkness. Desperately wanting to get out of this postmodern frustration of trying to live my life in an post-secondary institution where most people who are so similar to one another.
I have no idea what I'm talking about anymore. I just know my life in Poly is depressing me and my modules aren't exactly helping me raise my spirits.
Besides that, Zaidah drove to pick me up from Paya Lebar, which was awesome. *Pinches myself* Hey, I'm still not dreaming. She totally drove! She's not bad driver. Maybe I'll take my words about women being bad drivers. Thanks, Zaidah...=D
And I almost had the hots for my lecturer... Ms Karen Chia. She's cute but when her mouth starts talking about business, *yawns* boooorrrrriiinnnnngggg..
All right, see ya folks!
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