Francis de Pablo

Francis de Pablo

You want to know what's wrong with me now?

I feel as sick as a patient in a hospital who's not able to recover from his illness.

The fever keeps on coming, occasionally taking a step back to relieve me of my suffering and then coming back to taunt me again. The Panadol pills don't even seem to work.

Now I can never sleep or stay in a room with the air-conditioned turned on. Usually, I can withstand the shivering cold that the weather offers but my body is so weak that I shake uncontrollably when it's cold. My eating habits? I used to get hungry very easily and I tend to eat a lot. Now, I do still get hungry but I can't eat much. I had only half a bowl of rice. Even a Zinger Meal with regular fries makes me so full.

To make matters worse, I'm having sleeping problems. The mattress that I sleep on is so thin that once I lay on it, my ass touches the floor and it gives me back aches while I'm sleeping. Then the pillows that I lay my head on are also thin, literally giving me a pain in the neck.

This is not the end of it. Two mornings ago, I woke up with every joints in my body to be aching in pain. My fingers, my wrists, my ankles, my elbows and even my knees. My mobility is kind of disabled. I grind my teeth in pain as I lay myself on the bed because my knees give way and the only support I derive from to land myself gently down was from my wrists and elbows, which also give way. Dude, what the fuck is happening to me, man?!

What kind of fucking sickness do I have?! Am I going to end up like that previous Maroon 5 drummer whose wrists suffered a breakdown and was unable to drum for life?! I want to play drums, man(This is very important to me okay?). I want to able to withstand the cold in Japan again. I want to be like how I used to be...An active young kid who is able to do everything hip and cool.

But now, I'm like a fucking old man.

Honestly, how can this get any better?

So now you know, but does it show that you understand my situation? Nah..til you experience it, then you'll understand.

Damn my body..fucking piece of useless shit..