Episode VI

11.6.09 Journal Entry 6

This week made me feel like I’m living in a hellhole.

Every module had its homework.

Ms. Ang’s scriptwriting homework, Mr. Chong’s ICA1, Chrisp’s speech for ICA2, John’s Marketing test, Mr. Azhar’s scriptwriting and treatment homework.

And what else am I leaving out?

Honestly, I wasn’t really prepared for this week. Seriously, Alistair once said that week 4 was the worst but I didn’t really felt the pressure. But this week was the worst week I ever had.

Tension was high and everyone was at their wits’ ends trying to complete their homework and studies. I pushed myself on after every minor setback. Told myself to move on and don’t look back. I was on the verge of giving everything up until I gave myself a small pat on the back. I told myself: Though I may screw up big time for some assignments and test, but it’s okay. It’s over already. I must strive on to survive this week. Someone heard me saying this and she, too, gave her support and said “Yeaah, I like your attitude =)”. This really gave a boost in my morale.

So big deal, I screwed up Chrisp’s speech. We can’t possibly ace at every tests and exams right? Important lesson learnt: Never ever give an impromptu speech because I’m not a fluent speaker.

Preparation for John’s marketing test wasn’t easy at all. Though I paid a lot of attention during John’s lectures, the important facts and reasons still escapes my mind. So I had to constantly ask questions and scribble notes in my marketing notes and makes sure I understand everything aspect of the topic.

Then when I study the notes, I usually would copy what the notes had said so I remember it more clearly. Other than this way of memorizing the facts, I remember the facts using the sequence of how the facts was placed

My classmates kept saying I’m going to ace the test because I’m very clever. Truth is, I was never a clever boy. I would be the dumbest idiot if not for my willingness to change myself. It’s not that I’m clever; it’s just that I’m hardworking. I chose to study very hard because I know if I don’t study, I probably do very badly for the test. So when I study diligently, it’s just for me to pass that subject or module.

If I were an intelligent student, I wouldn’t be here in the first place. I would be studying at a JC already.

Marketing Module ain’t easy to learn but it ain’t that difficult to pick up either. All it takes is just common sense but I seem to be lacking that whenever I’m feeling nervous. And I don’t think I will ace the test today despite the overload of information in my head. The test was still difficult. Damn…

With the holidays approaching, I really wish I can prepare myself spiritually and be mentally prepared for more assignments to come.

Three days went down, two more to go.

Ganbate, Xing You!