i’m sick of that imaginary boundary. i don’t give a fuck anymore. i don’t want to bother about trying to enter the circle. because even if i keep trying? nothing happens. i wouldn’t be part of anything. i will still be the extra one in the circle, and then i will have to step out because i felt like i wasn’t needed.
fuck it. i don’t even see the need of trying.
or wait…did i even bother trying after awhile? I think I did. but from the start, it was pretty damn obvious that I wasn’t needed."
That's what she says.
I feel useless for not being able to cheer this girl up. Oh, why do I care? I don' know. I guess I'm the only guy silly enough to believe that true Love still exists.
I was exposed to so much corny and cliched romance-comedy movies from a very young age that I also finally gave in and believed in true love. Though having seen love tragedies happened right before my eyes, from families to friends, I still held on to the belief that one day, I will find the One.
After reading what she posted on her blog-cum-photo album, I can only assume that she is in no state for a relationship for she is no longer a believer herself.
I do not have the ability to reignite the flame of passion in her for Love.
I'm not her ideal boyfriend as I pale in comparison to guys like Joseph Gordon-Levitt. I have no charming personality. I have no nice smile. I have no nice clothes. I have nothing, except for my brains, which pisses off some competitive people in my class.
All in all, I have absolutely nothing unique to offer. I am just a fat geek sitting in his swivel chair, posting naive thoughts on the Net, half hoping somebody comes across and think I am a good person.
Let this Love end in flames.
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